were does the road take us. That I don't know. In the end it doesn't all say happily ever after. I just want my ever after....

Well the past and present swirls around as time marches on. Are you out there, please let me know. are you out there.

My candle light grows dim and the darkness is yet to come. Sometimes we feed off the light others and never realize how dim their candle has grown. Then one day as a twinkle in the eye the light is gone. One candle can light the fire, but as in life that candle is often forgotten about. The fire burns....

Perhaps

I found this song by Clay Aiken's. In a lot of ways it is how I feel, I wish I could just get this all out of my head but I can't.

I feel like I never measure up to who you see
Sometimes I think I can't give you all the love you need
You keep changing everyday
Amazing me in everyway.

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I never dreamed I could ever feel the way I do
I hope and pray I will always be enough for you
I can only do my best
I have to trust you with the rest

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I promise I will hold you through the changes and fears
When life seems unclear
And when I can't be right there with you
I know there's angels by your side

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything... I have

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity". ~ Gilda Radner, 1946-1989

In the end the heart of the matter is a matter of the heart. Maybe I am a fool for beliving n fairy tales, the truth is that I refuse to give up. I wish that I could go back and try again. For a lot of things I am very sorry, I don't really know...

My Christmas wish is for one night to be taken out and treated like I was the most important person in the world. I usually never ask for anything but I think i really need this. I grow tired and weary.

To that someone special out there know that I do love you. And would do anything to make you happy. Please know that.

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity". ~ Gilda Radner, 1946-1989

In the end the heart of the matter is a matter of the heart. Maybe I am a fool for beliving n fairy tales, the truth is that I refuse to give up. I wish that I could go back and try again. For a lot of things I am very sorry, I don't really know...

My Christmas wish is for one night to be taken out and treated like I was the most important person in the world. I usually never ask for anything but I think i really need this. I grow tired and weary.

To that someone special out there know that I do love you. And would do anything to make you happy. Please know that.

So here we are. Standing on the edge again, waiting, wanting someone to hold us from falling. But in Life i have come to accept that maybe a fall is what we need. I guess you never know if you can fly if you don't jump. I think at times we all come to the edge. In life our paths cross and then take off in different directions. I don't think I will ever get use to it. So here I stand on the edge....

You wander from room to room
Hunting for the diamond necklace
That is already around your neck!

Jalal-Uddin Rumi


So happy bday princess. I hope that it was a great one. Well things never stop getting interesting with me. Angels, Dragons and Memories from the past. The past has returned once again. My fairy tale story with all the actors in place.



At the end of the game, pawns and kings go back into the same box.


Italian Proverb